Gina's Ramblings

The big ultrasound is tomorrow. I am a bundle of flippin nerves I tell ya. I am a bit edgy today which is making it not so great for the fmaily. I kinda wish more people knew so I would have some shoulders to lean on. But I think this is the best way to do things. The select few I told are people I hold very close and people I truly trust. And of course those who actually read this blog... but most of those people are one in the same.

Anyway I hope to sleep OK tonight. Dh is up and out before the buttcrack of dawn to make it over to get back to work for the week. I think this is one of the last ones though for the month of November. But we will see.

OK well that is about it out of me today. Not too much to say I suppose.

Things are going pretty well.

Doing my best to calmly wait until Monday. I am hoping that our weekend being jam packed will help time flly.

Dh should be home tonight. Which is a plus. Costco trip tomorrow should be ummmm interesting LOL

Then there is a family Halloween party at our sons classmates house. Both boys have a sibling from that family in their class funny how it works out lol

Other than that not much else going on.... doing laundry... trying to clean up. This darm ligament pain is BAD today though it is REALLY slowing me down

DS#2 his eye is getting much much better. He says it still itches though. So I told him to scratch his elbow lol. He told me that doesn't help much hehe

OK I am off of here to switch out laundry loads!

Well I am 22 weeks today. I wish I had some big ol' exciting update to type up. The little guy is moving around a lot more now. More forceful in his movements too. You can actually see my belly moving. I think he may be another hicuuper too hehe.

Still not sure what to name the munchkin and if we did know we aren't telling anyway so neener neener. Just hope we figure out what he will be named before he starts school LOL . We know his middle names but just not which 'G' name we are going with.

Today I got the long awaited phone call. My ultrasound with the perinatologist will be Monday at 10 am. There are a series of appointments so I will be there all day. I would rather spend all afternoon in Seattle doing FUN things. But I just want to know what I may or may not be facing with this baby.

Now on for my vent. My mom... go figure a Mom vent. She clearly favors my oldest. I mean so much so my youngest has asked if she loves my oldest more. It is sad. She also seems to be totally unemotional about this baby. I told her I had to go to the university for a follow up ultrasound... she didn't even ask why. So I left it at that. Why tell her if she doesn't care?

I know she thinks one child is enough (in that case I would have never been born) she has told me too that she thinks she should have never been a mom. BUT grandkids.... I don't know I would think it is different. I am not sure if I can keep letting her favor one child over the others. It causes a lot of problems, that of course she never sees.

OK that is about it.

Oh we are adding more to our zoo. We are going to be taking in someone's Guinea pigs they cannot have anymore. So they boys are getting more pets. I swear I need to get them into 4-H to do something with their animals lol

OK I am off to bed :) Dh should be home tomorrow for the weekend so I have something to look forward to!!

I have been giving our clinic a run for their money LOL

Monday DS#2 gets hit full on in his ear with his hearing aid full force with a basketball. Which put him in EXTREME pain in his inner ear. Took him to the clinic the ear drum is intact WHEW!!! But there was trauma so it is going to hurt... basically he got 'bruised' inside his ear.

Today DS#2 gets up and gets dressed.... comes out to see me I take one look at him shake my head and tell him he isn't going to school today. He looked like he had pink eye. And goodie for me it is going around school..... Took him to the doc...sure enough pink eye. UGH I felt though like one of those hypochondriac moms always in the doctor running in for every little thing I swear. I told the doc that he laughed and said "nah that is what we are here for ". Anyway DS is out for the rest of the week. He is heartbroken. They are having a party on Friday. But he is getting over it. The eye drops are painful and he has to have them in both eyes 4 times a day. That is such a dang joy to do to him.


Of course DH is gone. Not deployed but man does this ever feel like deployment gremlins.

I called my doctor today and said I hadn't heard from the university yet and need to know when my ulrasound will be.

Well after some digging through paperwork... She found it... It had been referred to my insurance Co for preapproval. And was going to leave it at that. Well our insurance company takes 48 hours to approve or deny.... I asked when they turned it in...she said last Thursday. So I said OK I am calling my ins co and getting the status. She keeps looking and finds out hey look there is the approval! UGH!!!!

So I have been giving myself an ulcer for a week and UW doesn't have the request yet!!!
MAN!

Anyway I should get my call for the appointment in the next couple of days

I am getting tickets to a couple of things. Of course family oriented things ;)
Monsters on ice is the first one! I love those things :) We decided to suprise the boys with tickets.

The next is one I am GIDDY about. The Lion King musical is running at the Paramount!! This is the same place we saw Chicago. I cannot wait to get tickets!!! I think the boys will love it too!

I am still waiting. No phone call yet from UW about my appointment. The nerves are killing me. Making me sick UGH.

We are going to head up to Canada for the Flu shot. There are none to be found here and the base... getting the shot at the END of next month will not be giving them out to anyone but seniors and babies under 6 months old. Even though my category is on the CDC's high risk list I do not rate a shot this year. Lovely.

I am not terrified of the flu. Just would not want to put my baby at risk. And not have to go through the flu and not be able to take anything to help me through it.

I got an invite to DH's cousins wedding. Unfortunately we cannot go. Too close to the due date. At the shut down on air travel stage. I will have to send our regrets and a gift :)

Anyway dh is gone again. Called today to say he is doing well. I am so glad he loves his job lol. Makes it very easy to support him ;)

Things here are good. I got a fire going in the woodstove today. Feel the need to be all nice and toasty :) The kids love it :)

OK I am off to make my bed (it was sheet day hehe) and take a shower and crawl in between the covers!

Today I had my OB appointment. We went over the results of the ultrasound.

All looks GREAT -EXCEPT.... They did the Nuchal fold test-which is one of the tests for downs syndrome. And it came back in the high range... Still within normal but high normal. The leg bones measure normal and there isn't the "double bubble" in the abdomen that are also possible indicators. Downs babies tend to have shorter Femurs.

We refused the Triple screen blood test because of the HIGH instances of false positives. And now this ultrasound pops up with something.

Made me stop in my tracks that is for sure.
So I broke into tears. Nothing would EVER change my mind about this baby EVER!! We tried for too many years for him. No matter what he will be perfect.

So for now I wait. I am being referred down to the university for another more in depth ultrasound with a perinatologist (a specialist in high risk pregnancies).

My OB says he is fairly certain everything is OK but for piece of mind (I think mostly for me) he wants me to get another u/s. He says without the other markers and it still being in the normal range it is under 3% our son will actually have downs.
I asked since the tests is normally done earlier could that warp the results a little and he said that too is possible.

I called dh to let him know to call when he had some time to talk. I fully expected to get his voicemail. Instead he was on his lunch break and we ended up talking. He says Nothing will change his mind about this baby either. But he thinks things will end up being PERFECTLY normal. He asked if I was OK I said no because honestly I am a train wreck right now. I am glad he is my rock. Wonderful man I swear how I ever ended up with him ... I just got VERY lucky.

I would appreciate any prayers and good thoughts you have to spare for our son.

I should know the date by next week. And they will be getting me in ASAP. The good thing is they will tell me the results on the spot. None of this waiting to hear stuff.

I know God will only give me as much as I can handle BUT I just wish he wouldn't trust me so much sometimes. .

I dreamt I had my son. It was for sure a boy no more doubting ;)
He was born Feb 17th at 7:50 am after 7 and a half hours of labor (A DREAM REMEMBER?? lol ) . He was beautiful :) DH wasn't there when I had to take him home and someone had torn up all of our linoleum in the kitchen. Not sure why though lol. I remember thinking I had to go find dh to tell him I was home and had the baby and he had to fix the floor and add the baby to DEERS LOL Military BS invades my dreams it is terrible!
The funny thing is I was asking everybody about my labor and delivery I didn't remember ANYTHING about it. Maybe that was a good thing. I just woke up and KNOWN I had been through labor but couldn't remember when I went into labor where I was how I got to the hospital or anything.
A normal sized baby and short labor? What a dream :)

Lots of little things to update.
First today is hubby's and my anniversary. Of course he is in San Diego. But I know he would give anything to be here now. I talked to him today and we wished each other happy anniversary and all and all mushy about how much we miss each other.
Lets see. Little man has some sort of chest cold type thing. It is clearing up quickly. It hasn't slowed him down one bit at all. To be honest I cannot remember the last time he was sick.
I am worried about not getting the flu shot this year. Because of the pregnancy I am considered high risk and priority for the shot. BUT where can I get one? Good luck finding them anywhere. I havemy next OB appointment on Thursday. I will ask him then maybe he knows something I don't lol. If not the base clinic will have them the end of the month and will do seniors and high priority first. But I cannot get an answer IF pregnancy is on their high risk. You would think someone could give a straight answer BUT nope. I cold always go to Canada. But there is the stipulation that they are "not FDA approved" not sure if I want to take that risk.

On Thursday at my appointment I am very curious to see if he ups my due date at all. I am expecting to be induced and I am scared not to be. I do not want to be the crazy lady on the news with a 13-15 pound baby. I also wonder if he found a way for me to donate my cord blood. I have my list of stuff to ask. If I didn't have my list I would be lost hehe.

We have some of the baby things out. Getting the dogs and boys used to them being out so they won't be so apt to touch and mess with things etc.

I bought some more baby items a few hats and socks and a case of diapers. So I think I am fairly well set on the newborn stuff. Except I need to find a good going home outfit.

I got a few things on eBay.... Well 4 outfits for .99!!!
Another person has offered to send me all of their baby boys clothes he has outgrown. I am amazed by some peoples generosity.

My big purchases are going to be the travel system (carseat/stroller) and the bedside co-sleeper. I got the swing and big carseat on sale (they are on layaway). So I am almost there :)
I fully do not expect a shower. So I am doing what I can to get US prepared.
I had someone suggest a "virtual shower" never heard of that. Guess it is the new "in" thing to do???

Anyway I am about done for now. I know there is more I wanted to write her....but I cannot remember what it was for the life of me (sadly typical).

Until later!

But I hope the ultrasound update makes up for it :)

So we are having a Boy... wowzers. I still am having a hard time believing it though! I think that I am just scared of it being WRONG. I am overjoyed to be having another boy. I am excited. A bit disappointed that this one isn't a girl BUT That isn't a big disappointment.

I did make a big step though. DS#2 and I went to the carters outlet and bought 4 gowns and 4 jammie outfits (love their sales it was only $30) . However they are being kept intact and I kept the receipts LOL.

Little Man is BAD to bring baby shopping with me!!! He was going through things saying this is cute, this will look good on my baby brother, My brother would LOVE this outfit hehe too cute.

I called my mother in law today. She really wanted to know the gender of the baby. I asked her what her guess was. She said it has to be a boy. I am making everything in blue and pink. The Blue things come out perfect and I always mess up the pink ones. I said yup it is a boy :) She was so happy :) I again invited her up for the birth of this little one. She said weather permitting she would love to! If the weather is bad then she could catch a flight up and be here after the little one is born. I like the fact she is so interested in the kids and the one on the way.

As for my family for the most part I haven't told them. Not because I am hiding it. But because most seem disinterested. The majority of my fathers side of the family though I haven't told the majority of them I am even pregnant. I do not want to open myself up to the drama they bring.

I have a few friends some I consider family. They have been great. Better than I could EVER hope for in friends. They are sharing my joy and excitement. They are there with my through it all and step in where family sincerely lacks support.

Things all in all are good. I am still a bit tired. Trying to keep up on everything
but that doesn't always work. I wish I could finally find something that appeals to me to eat. I am SERIOUSLY craving fresh mangos! I was hoping that Costco would have a case of them but no such luck. But I am not really wanting to eat much else.

The bad news. Yeah there always is some. Dh is leaving this weekend. He will miss our anniversary next week. I should in a way feel lucky this is the first time he has EVER missed an anniversary. Just luck of the draw...but the luck has run out. He will be home just in time to catch the last couple/few hours of DS#1's birthday. Then he is home for a couple of days and gone for a couple of weeks. Shore duty... not as great as our last shore duty BUT it sure as heck isn't as bad as it could be or as bad as it can be on sea duty.

Well I am exhausted and it is past this girls bed time!!

WEll first let me say I had to do something special to tell the guys. So we went out to dinner.
At the ultrasound. Things went well. We have a VERY stubborn baby!! the baby did more of showing its BEHIND than anything else :) Head turned toward my spine just showing its but to the world LOL Everytime the tech went to look at something the baby moved and she lost it lol

The baby ALREADY weighs a POUND!! I am 20 weeks and the baby is measuring 21 weeks 4 days. We all know I have big babies lol The baby was moving and squirming ALL over the place. Quite the kicker ;)

I told the boys and Dh at the table breaking out the photos. First I showed them the one of the babys head arm and belly (very Halloweenish). Which is this photo here...

They thought it was REALLY cool.

Then I showed them the other picture.... The one that Shows the gender of this little one.... It appears we are having.
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ANOTHER BOY !!!!

Of course now I am sitting here looking at the gender photo I got and I am second guessing it!! lol I am just the one to have the luck twice and the ultrasounds be wrong LOL

Well this post came up blank.... ODD

Anyway.
Tomorrow is the big ultrasound. I would appreciate prayers for a healthy little baby!
I am nervous as can be.

Lots of predictions as far as gender. I hope this little one will not be stubborn and let us know the gender!

whoaaaaa feeeelings.
OK seriously... I have been feeling VERY inadequate lately. I would like to think I was once at least a competant individual. I cannot hold a thought. I cannot read a book because my mind wanders. What does it wander to? NOTHING just out there in a daze. I am a clutz! I drop things ALL the time. Thank goodness I do not work in a China shop. I would be worse than a bull!
I cannot remember what I was doing half the time!

UGH I end up a sobbing mess. Which is another thing. I am such a girl!!!! I cry all the time. We watched Raising Helen and I bawled like a baby for like 10 minutes. What in the world?!?!?!? Hubby tried to console me asking me what was wrong. He was worried... When I told him it was the movie he tried to stifle a laugh. I do not blame him though.

UGH!!!!

I have been so worried about this baby and with the upcoming ultrasound. I am worried about all of the maybes and possibilities. With my first and second I was so oblivious to everything. I was carefree. I think all of the losses changes the way I look at pregnancy. But if you look at it I know more now.

I know that I have an immunity to Fifths disease. I know that neither DH nor I have chromosomal abnormalities. I had both tests done after one of the miscarriages.

So I really should be more relaxed.

Not much to say today really.

My mom is here and been busy a bit I guess.

Thursday-ultrasound day!! It is coming up so soon!!

Almost halfway there. With me propbably being induced early though... I am probably over halfway there hehehe.
I am feeling good. going through a "I am hungry but nothing looks good" stage yet again. So a lot of the time I end on not eating.. I know that is terrible. BUT I am trying to force myself to eat something. It normally end up being Life cereal hahaha. Though this morning it was a honeycrisp apple and an orange. Those apples are GREAT.

I am now down to one week- a mere 7 days until my ultrasound. I am so upset about going alone. But I went alone with my first too.....and have done so much with the kids without hubby here. I know it will be OK.

I wake up most mornings to the baby doing its stretching exercises lol. Well ok more like Riverdancing as I say hehehe

I am very forgetful andmore of a clutz. I swear pregnancy swiss cheese brain has hit hard.

Today I am voluteering at the book fair at the boys' school. They have their wish lists for what they want. I am happy they both love reading so much.

We have been using Freecycle for some baby items. I put out my request for some cloth diapering supplies. We will see how that works out.

Anyway that is it.
Pretty simple of an update today

Not even enough people showed for me to officially resign!!
It is just too much UGH.
I will resign I cannot juggle everything

I am going to our club meeting. I am resigning as president. Some including dh are quite shocked. I just do not have the time for it. With DS#1's health problems and the new ones that have popped up, my own issues with this pregnancy and not to mention I cannot keep trying to get people involved. I give up I guess. I have tried for awhile and just do not have it in me to try anymore.

I am not looking forward to the reaction tonight but I HAVE to do what is best for me and my family.

Well I am down 6 pounds this time (dietician appointment). So I lost 6 of the 8 I gained. This is too funny. I have to kee seeing her until I actually end up ON the weight gain chart. Mine is actually under the slope I should be on. I mean come on folks I am not dieting... I have the weight to lose no problem... Oh well. I am glad they are looking out for my health ;)

The ligament pain has been BAD lately (these past few days). Our trip to Oktoberfest was great. I didn't walk too much without resting often. I guess this is this pregnancy's thing. DS#1 bruised my ribs, DS#2 it was my sciatic nerve. Eh it will be fine.

I am begining to feel the baby moving and kicking more. It is the most amazing thing in the world.Funny as I am typing this I got a good strong kick :)

I am hardly able to contain my excitement. 10 count them... 10 days left until my ultrasound! I will be going alone. But that is OK. I hope the baby is strong and healthy... and a bonus if I get to find out the gender! Boy or Girl?? geesh It will be fun to know...

DS#2 is so loving and great. He hug my belly all the time and talks to the baby a lot. He asks questions all the time. Always wants to know how I am feeling and how the baby is. He tries to say things to the baby to make it kick! lol too cute. He says he can't wait for the baby to be here. I asked if he wanted to be there when the baby is born. He said that that the delievry room isn't a place for a little kid HAHAH


Oh and a picture from this weekend at Oktoberfest.