Thursday, January 06, 2005
HUGE HUGE Vent
I am not normally a whiner... After I wrote this I realized it is whine factor 12!!!! So be forewarned
Last night I fell asleep while DH and I were watching a movie in our room(love Netflix) when dh decided to go to sleep, He woke me up. Totally unintentional. Which then led to me having to get up and pee..... Then back to bed... Could I fall back asleep? NOPE. I am in pain and just all around upset I cannot get back to sleep (so not like me). And I swear dh has a bruise on his side from me poking him because of his snoring.
So around rolls 4am. I finally drift back to sleep around then... 5 am... Dh's alarm goes off!!!! Would be fine but does he hear it? NO So I have to wake him up... He hits snooze... and does that 3 more times... Forget it I am up now.
So 3 hours sleep last night, maybe.
I get the boys off to school this morning but feel So terrible... BUT I cannot go to sleep because I have a Dr appt.
I get ready, get to the doctors on time... well 15 minutes early (military habit even though this is a civilian doctor)And I wait... and wait and wait... This is the first time he has been this late. an HOUR later I was taken in.
I get weighed... up 11pounds?? no way!!!Even the doctor said there is NO way that is possible. Lovely though huh?? Enough to crush me at that moment.
I get in there tell him of all the stuff that has been going on... all blamed on the size of the baby and the baby dropping down.
He offers me pain meds. I refused them...
I am starting to cry at this point... WHY??? I STILL don't know!!!!
My poor doctor. He is so nice he is asking if I am OK is everything at home OK (I have a wonderful family.... ) Do I want to sit and talk? NO.... I just say I am tired and that I just want to go home. The poor doctor was dumbfounded by this I am so not like that I am a light and very good humored person...Even big and pregnant.
Anyway I get out of there and then walk out into the parking lot and it is flippin snowing! UGH. Some People here cannot drive in any inclement weather. Lovely just the drive home I wanted to take. Dh called as I was getting to my truck and told me he heard it was snowing... Yeah DUH! Tells me to be careful and asks why I am crying... Tell me... Why when someone asks you why you are crying you cry more???? I tell him I am tired and I just want to go home and that I will call him when I get home to let him know I got there... The drive home went smooth... Beside the one guy going 25 on the highway (2 lane)...But I get to the I-5 and smooth sailing the rest of the way home.
I get home call dh... Cry some more. UGH. Cannot explain why still. Hell I am crying AGAIN now!!!
I get a call from the rental management of this place. They JUST got my fix it letter for this place (I sent a month ago) and well they are coming today! @(#^&#$(^&#(^&#(^&@!)*@)#*%@!!!!!! I wanted to flippin SLEEP!!! So I hurriedly go to sweep up the floor and get it ready to mop (thanks boys and dogs!) clean the kitchen counter to get ready for these people to get here... I have not felt up to cleaning as good as I normally do...it hurts too much... Which at this point after trying to get SOME housework done I am in agony and I called the doctor and said I change my mind and I want the meds.!
Then the homeowner calls me... Eh we will be there Monday! UGH UGH But it is a relief.
OK So there is the end of it. Dh is on his way to my doctors office to get the script so he can get it filled. I can tell he wants to help me and make it all better but he is afraid to make me cry and well it is a vicious circle. He could say HI and I would cry at this point
Last night I fell asleep while DH and I were watching a movie in our room(love Netflix) when dh decided to go to sleep, He woke me up. Totally unintentional. Which then led to me having to get up and pee..... Then back to bed... Could I fall back asleep? NOPE. I am in pain and just all around upset I cannot get back to sleep (so not like me). And I swear dh has a bruise on his side from me poking him because of his snoring.
So around rolls 4am. I finally drift back to sleep around then... 5 am... Dh's alarm goes off!!!! Would be fine but does he hear it? NO So I have to wake him up... He hits snooze... and does that 3 more times... Forget it I am up now.
So 3 hours sleep last night, maybe.
I get the boys off to school this morning but feel So terrible... BUT I cannot go to sleep because I have a Dr appt.
I get ready, get to the doctors on time... well 15 minutes early (military habit even though this is a civilian doctor)And I wait... and wait and wait... This is the first time he has been this late. an HOUR later I was taken in.
I get weighed... up 11pounds?? no way!!!Even the doctor said there is NO way that is possible. Lovely though huh?? Enough to crush me at that moment.
I get in there tell him of all the stuff that has been going on... all blamed on the size of the baby and the baby dropping down.
He offers me pain meds. I refused them...
I am starting to cry at this point... WHY??? I STILL don't know!!!!
My poor doctor. He is so nice he is asking if I am OK is everything at home OK (I have a wonderful family.... ) Do I want to sit and talk? NO.... I just say I am tired and that I just want to go home. The poor doctor was dumbfounded by this I am so not like that I am a light and very good humored person...Even big and pregnant.
Anyway I get out of there and then walk out into the parking lot and it is flippin snowing! UGH. Some People here cannot drive in any inclement weather. Lovely just the drive home I wanted to take. Dh called as I was getting to my truck and told me he heard it was snowing... Yeah DUH! Tells me to be careful and asks why I am crying... Tell me... Why when someone asks you why you are crying you cry more???? I tell him I am tired and I just want to go home and that I will call him when I get home to let him know I got there... The drive home went smooth... Beside the one guy going 25 on the highway (2 lane)...But I get to the I-5 and smooth sailing the rest of the way home.
I get home call dh... Cry some more. UGH. Cannot explain why still. Hell I am crying AGAIN now!!!
I get a call from the rental management of this place. They JUST got my fix it letter for this place (I sent a month ago) and well they are coming today! @(#^&#$(^&#(^&#(^&@!)*@)#*%@!!!!!! I wanted to flippin SLEEP!!! So I hurriedly go to sweep up the floor and get it ready to mop (thanks boys and dogs!) clean the kitchen counter to get ready for these people to get here... I have not felt up to cleaning as good as I normally do...it hurts too much... Which at this point after trying to get SOME housework done I am in agony and I called the doctor and said I change my mind and I want the meds.!
Then the homeowner calls me... Eh we will be there Monday! UGH UGH But it is a relief.
OK So there is the end of it. Dh is on his way to my doctors office to get the script so he can get it filled. I can tell he wants to help me and make it all better but he is afraid to make me cry and well it is a vicious circle. He could say HI and I would cry at this point
