Gina's Ramblings

Each of my childrens middle names are very special. Each named after someone in the family.
Our son Grady John Park, he carries the name John after my father who passed away 5 years ago today.
I remember the day vividly. I talked to him that morning chatting about this and that. And how he joked about how dangerous this job he was working was. But he said he would be fine. I got the call later on that night saying he had an accident on the job and he died. I remember just turning numb and falling into the chair. I couldn't believe it. I wanted it to be a joke so terribly bad.
My husband was out to sea it was just me and the kids. I didn't know what to do or where to start.

There are days I watch my boys and see the fire in Gary III's eyes and I think of my father and how much he reminds me of him. I am saddened that my dad never got to meet Gary III or Grady. I know that he looks down on us and looks out for us too. I have a feeling he would be proud of me, proud of the boys. I just wish he were here to see it all some days you know?

Well I will trudge on today and try not to bite off anyones head I am a bit snippy. Been up since about 3 am and I am tired on top of it all