Sunday, August 14, 2005
Wow well mental spew
Hoping I can sleep if I just spew some of this out...without being too specific.
I am happy- LOVE my family. Things are coming along so well. I mean all the ducks are getting in a row and quacking happily. I think well thought I knew what I wanted for the future... I think I still might. Now the whole OMG did I?? is going through my head. If I get what I wanted now what (if anything) am I sacrificing? Will I have to cut corners I did not want to cut? I know I will work my arse off to make things work out no matter what.
Got a bunch of am I strong enough etc stuff going through my brain. All for probably nothing BUT I am sooo playing the what if card... hell the what if DECK of cards lol. Internet research to other OCD for info type things lol
Trying to reach the ' let it flow; let it happen' stage. HAHA key word trying. I know I have support, and friends and good company... that should be enough to help me right?
I am happy- LOVE my family. Things are coming along so well. I mean all the ducks are getting in a row and quacking happily. I think well thought I knew what I wanted for the future... I think I still might. Now the whole OMG did I?? is going through my head. If I get what I wanted now what (if anything) am I sacrificing? Will I have to cut corners I did not want to cut? I know I will work my arse off to make things work out no matter what.
Got a bunch of am I strong enough etc stuff going through my brain. All for probably nothing BUT I am sooo playing the what if card... hell the what if DECK of cards lol. Internet research to other OCD for info type things lol
Trying to reach the ' let it flow; let it happen' stage. HAHA key word trying. I know I have support, and friends and good company... that should be enough to help me right?
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I just KNEW what you were talking about!! But, I kept my questions to myself:o) Will keep thinking happy thoughts...
Sincerely,
Amy B.
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Sincerely,
Amy B.
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