Gina's Ramblings

I am looking at things a little clearer. This extension is only about a week longer than I had in mind. ONLY a week. But in my mind that week/week and a half was WAY WAY too long.
I know things will be ok. My poor doctor though. I was getting all teary eyed he said he would not let me leave until I told him WHY I was crying. Yeah THEN came the waterworks. The poor guy seems so taken aback when I cry. Sort of like he will do anything to make me STOP lmao. He has a great bedside manner and did not want to let me leave until I was ok...even with dh there.
I did however ask him for the epidural now and dangit if he didn't say no LMAO

I will ask only one thing this time. If I cease progressing I want a C-section. Though a C-section is NOT something I want. I do not want a prolonged labor again and a baby in the NICU again. I want to normal take my baby home scenario. I do not want him in the hospital for over a week.

I guess the point of this, I WILL be OK
Baby G will be born healthy and not make the news ;)

Well I will be around and pregnant until about 38-38-1/2weeks.

Yup they are letting me go until then.

I am so dang afraid to have a huge baby. I have never gone into labor myself. Inductions are VERY tough on me. BUT having a baby that was over 10 pounds was not easy either and put him in danger.

I am not hoping to be induced today and have a little baby etc. I am not looking to have a tiny baby. Heck I wouldn't know what to do with a 'normal' sized baby... I am just terrified of the birth if the little guy is as big or bigger as his oldest brother. He was already over 7 pounds last week... and they said DS#2 was the same and he was 9lbs 4oz... They were off a couple of pounds! Yes I know every pregnancy is different. But over 7 pounds and gaining at least 1/2 a pound a week?? OMG

I do NOT want a C-section and I do NOT want another baby who gets sick because of my prolonged labors. Hello rock... hello hard place.

I "can" go in and request an amnio to check for lung maturity and gor a week to a week and a half earlier. But I would prefer not to take that route.

UGH!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway I am at the point now I am crying out of fear and frustration.

Of feeling sick and tired!!

That is about it

Well Little Baby G is an active little guy. Always letting me know he is there. Today, I went hours without feeling him move. I drank a soda laid on my side, nothing.
Moved him around from the outside... nothing. I tried everything for an hour.

Getting to the point where I was planning on a trip to the hospital.

Then he gets hiccups! WHEW. He is ok. After the hiccups he got back to his normal moving and shaking routine.

Talk about worrying the heck out of me though!!!!!

That Novaform mattress topper. It is worth 10x its weight in gold!! I am not hurting near as much ok... hardly at all. and DANGIT I just wish I got this thing months ago! EVEN DH woke up saying how good his back felt .

Tomorrow morning at 0845 I have my dr appt. I am nervous and so not looking forward to it in a way. Yeah pelvic exams are not on the top of my list hahaha Good news though... dh will be able to make this appointment.

I just want to know what the plans are for baby G's arrival, arrival date and well HOW lol Yes folks I KNOW how babies are born LOL
But c-section? Induction? Who knows.

I am scared. Feel a touch unprepared as well. But that is normal. I have to get the house ready but I am lacking the energy to do it.

It is weird nightly I wake up around 1-2 am. I am up until 4-5 am no reason just up and tired but cannot sleep! So I flip through worthless terrible late night TV. Then I go to bed until 6. Get up get the boys off to school at 8 and then I am back asleep at 9-10. What a weird schedule. Maybe it is my body getting ready for weird baby schedules. Who knows??

OK I am off of here. Going to finish up baby G's laundry and he will be ready... carseat, Clothes, diapers, wipes, a place to sleep..... he is good to go!

hehe
Dh has spoiled me today.
I have wanted a smoothie machine for awhile he got me one today and a couple bags of frozen fruit too ;) Good man there is even a rebate on the machine too :) ended up being half price.

I have had problems with my hips hurting when I sleep and my back... causing me to toss and turn flipping about every half hour. I have had my eyes on this Novaform mattress topper. But DANG so expensive. Well guess what I got today?!?!?!?!?! Yup the memory foam mattress topper! omg I am in heaven. This thing feels like heaven! I will let you all know how it does tomorrow morning ;)
Oh and he got $30 off of that too! I have taught him well haha

The purpose and usefulness of the washer and dryer. Right now I cannot say enough good things about the washer and dryer. I have not fallen behind on laundry since I got them. I can get more laundry done no missing the rinse cycle. I swear these are a great gift.

Since I am FINALLY totally convinced Baby G IS a boy I have my first load of his clothes in the washer. It even has a special cycle called kids wear! How neat is that??

Anyway I called my mom just to thank her again lol Corny but true!

Now if the solid oak or the solid pine dining table I have my eyes on were to show up at my door, heck, That will make my year! lmao

Can you all believe it? the end is near. Yesterday we had the ultrasound to check his growth. Good news DH got to go this time!!!
Everything with Baby G looks great. Lungs, heart, all other internal organs... all great. I was reassured YET AGAIN that Baby G is in fact a boy. I am just hoping the dreams where the doctor tells me that it is a girl LOL

I did learn one measurement I wish I didn't know LMAO. His head circumference!! 34 cm at that point... you do the conversion LOL

We also learned that at one day shy of 35 weeks. The little guy was weighing in at 7 pounds already! he is measuring the size of a full term baby and is in the 83%!

It is odd how people...complete strangers think that you have no right to privacy or personal space when you are pregnant. From people touching my belly to people asking me if we are going to have another. Because we have all boys they want to know if we are going to keep trying until we have a girl. Like the others were failed attempts LOL

I go into the doctors on Monday. I hope he has some answers as to when Baby G will arrive. Cross your fingers that he is at least under 10 pounds. That is ALL I am asking for.

OK I am off to go down for a nap. Resting while I can at this point!

Baby G a bit early......

So I will NOT be this lady!

http://www.cnn.com/2005/WORLD/americas/01/19/brazil.big.baby.ap/index.html

I do not have gestational diabetes though ;) Just BIG babies....

First he was VERY glad to see me as my normal self :) No crying or feeling blah.

Well lets see... I didn't gain any weight, no swelling, urine test came back dandy, heartbeat is right on . Of course Baby G had hiccups when the dr was listening to the heartbeat hehe funny to hear them AND feel them lol

Still measuring a little over 4 weeks ahead.

The ultrasound to see how big he really is, is scheduled for Next Wednesday Afternoon!! WOOHOO So after 3pm expect an update with the general info and of course...pictures :)
Maybe too if they tell me one more time it is a boy I will REALLY believe it hehehe

I also go back in for my next appointment and the strep B test the 31st.

And that is it...

Oh wait Dh called me from work this afternoon to let me know he was potentially exposed to whooping cough at work greeeeeeaaaaaaatttt. Medical contacted everybody in Dh's shop to let them know and to ask them to let their families know especially those with family members who are higher risk, immune compromised, children and pregnant women. I of course said "people still get that??? Aren't we all vaccinated for that as kids??"

But I feel confident we will all be OK

Well I think I have successfully beat this NASTY chest cold I had. DH is still encouraging me to stay in bed and "rest".
If my hips didn't hurt from as much sleep as I have gotten lol I would STILL be in there asleep hehe.
Thursday I have my next appointment. I still bet even after the past several days not eating I will have gained A LOT of weight LOL
I want to go so may places and do a bunch of stuff but it just isn't happening. I need to order our half cow too and of course get a few last minute things for the baby.... just not happening it seems... the time is disappearing!
I am hoping everything still comes together for the birth of the little guy and everyone who WANTS to be here can be. I still fear it is a girl! Fear not because we don't want a girl but fear because we have NOTHING for a girl LOL
Like I said Thursday I go into my OB... and barring any major bawling episode from me HE should be OK hehehhe. I will of course want to know THEN when my ultrasound will be BUT I will have to wait for them to call me. I will have it at about 35 weeks that is all I know. Thursday I will be 34 weeks though.
Well that is about it. I am going to go lay down. I sound like a lazy woman I swear. I got dishes done and laundry in... honest I did something

I am still in the midst of packing my hospital bag. It dawned on me it is close enough that I really should have SOMETHING ready.So I have one of my nursing tops and will probably put in a pair of maternity jeans or sweats lol. A few outfits for Baby G. I think I know what I want his hospital pics taken in... But I brought an alternative and of course an outfit that is gender neutral "just in case" lol. A few personal items for me and I am good to go :)
I hope not to be there in the hospital long so no need for much. DH has the cell he can step outside to make phone calls with... I will forget something I am sure lol

Now the question... What will his middle name be????

OK OK I am off to bed. nighty night

I cannot drive my truck anymore :( I cannot reach the pedals and not have my belly touch the wheel :( Yup too big to fit there... Sigh... Sorry just feeling big right now.

I forgot to post about this. Little man has a sense of humor... a bit more dry than most his age. But he is a funny little guy. He came up to my stomach put his mouth against it and said-in his BEST darth Vader voice.... " Baby G I am your brother" HAHAHAHA

Things are going well. I am at the "I cannot wait for this to be over" stage. I swear every pregnancy you forget this stage and the actual labor. Otherwise why would you do it again? hahaha.

I have certainly dropped. The ladies in the school office noticed the other day and were sure to mention it.

The pain management is going well I am much more functional that is for sure.

My next dr appointment is the 20th. Then I will have the ultrasound scheduled I wish I knew the exact date but I will learn patience one of these years I suppose. hehe.

Nausea is back, difficulty sleeping, hourly trips to the bathroom lol Still for the most part I am VERY happy to be pregnant but even happier that it is almost over. I feel and look huge... hubby is nice enough to say no I don't hehe but we all know the truth... And here it is..in photo form

I have not felt all that great for awhile... that in itself worries dh
Dh left out to go pick up something. I remembered one thing I wanted him to get so I tried to call his cell twice.... I didn't leave a message just figured he was in a no reception area (he was). So I give up on trying for a bit... Meanwhile my eldest DS gets on the phone with his friend.

He gets off the phone about 20 minutes later and it immediately rings.. It is dh. Turns out DS never clicked over on the call waiting! First words out of his mouth... "Are you OK???? " He was starting to worry about me and was headed home thinking I had left for the hospital or was on the phone with my doctor because I was in labor or something LMAO
He is so cute sometimes

-I really dislike the term "baby's daddy"
-some people thrive on drama
-when an iron is going to tip over do no try to catch it....let the darn thing fall (wana see my blisters??)
-when it hurts to bend over, everything you need is on the ground or you drop it
-some people are amazing in how much they care about someone they do not even know
-The friends I have are irreplaceable
-Time crawls when you are waiting on someone
-I am lucky (in love and in life)
-sometimes it takes more than a lesson in hard work to teach a child a valuable lesson in pride in their work.
-Some people will never cease to amaze me
-some family is also irreplaceable... some inescapable...
-my dogs are crazy, and loveable and very protective of me

AND
-I am thankful for our health insurance!
-a medicine should not cost $2300.00 for a 2 month supply for a child who needs it

I am hoping the boys learned a lesson in how much it takes to keep a house clean. I got them involved in my 'nesting' . Moving furniture and cleaning. Scrubbing the floor on their hands and knees. They thought it was wrong for THEM to have to do it (I mop and scrub the high traffic areas) but again if I were to do it not only would they not care but they wouldn't help keep it clean either. They have gotten into the habit of just making a mess and hoping the cleaning fairy would come along and magically clean in. Yeah well the cleaning fairly is big and pregnant and not feeling as good as she could be.
Maybe actually DOING some cleaning they will work harder to keep it clean right?? I am really hoping that is the way it works out....

The kitchen floor looks good... btw I mopped it all LOL theyjust did the spot cleaning and still complained. The living room is looking good and the btahroom is about done too

"I love you man" like haha

Let me say I am VERY glad I got the pain meds. While there is still some pain there, the edge is off and I can walk normal (well normal for a pregnant woman).
Oh and all of my heightened emotion crying fits and all ... when dh came home I felt better. I didn't want him to do anything or touch me but just him being here made me feel better.

Now speaking of dh.... I am going to go lay down before he starts to give me that look. And the why aren't you in bed speach lol.

No driving by myself for awhile BOO BUT The fact I can function, I will take it!

Oh our little itty bit of snow dusting this afternoon (turned to ice though) ... More is on the way. I am amazed at how freaked out people up here get in this snow....BTW the boys are hoping for a few inches tonight and no school tomorrow heheheh

Well things are going along. If I wasn't in pain things would be the BEST! Baby G is moving a lot lately. His movements are stronger and more noticable.

My doctors appt... I will not go into weight gain because it IS wrong! lol

I am back up to measuring 4 weeks ahead. I go back in 2 weeks. At that point I will have my ultrasound scheduled. My next appt is of course the same dah as the E7 exam. So DH cannot make the appt... oh well. Maybe he can make the ultrasound positive thinking right?!?!?!

Baby G's heartrate is great. He sounds fine and dandy!

I am not normally a whiner... After I wrote this I realized it is whine factor 12!!!! So be forewarned

Last night I fell asleep while DH and I were watching a movie in our room(love Netflix) when dh decided to go to sleep, He woke me up. Totally unintentional. Which then led to me having to get up and pee..... Then back to bed... Could I fall back asleep? NOPE. I am in pain and just all around upset I cannot get back to sleep (so not like me). And I swear dh has a bruise on his side from me poking him because of his snoring.

So around rolls 4am. I finally drift back to sleep around then... 5 am... Dh's alarm goes off!!!! Would be fine but does he hear it? NO So I have to wake him up... He hits snooze... and does that 3 more times... Forget it I am up now.
So 3 hours sleep last night, maybe.

I get the boys off to school this morning but feel So terrible... BUT I cannot go to sleep because I have a Dr appt.

I get ready, get to the doctors on time... well 15 minutes early (military habit even though this is a civilian doctor)And I wait... and wait and wait... This is the first time he has been this late. an HOUR later I was taken in.
I get weighed... up 11pounds?? no way!!!Even the doctor said there is NO way that is possible. Lovely though huh?? Enough to crush me at that moment.

I get in there tell him of all the stuff that has been going on... all blamed on the size of the baby and the baby dropping down.

He offers me pain meds. I refused them...

I am starting to cry at this point... WHY??? I STILL don't know!!!!
My poor doctor. He is so nice he is asking if I am OK is everything at home OK (I have a wonderful family.... ) Do I want to sit and talk? NO.... I just say I am tired and that I just want to go home. The poor doctor was dumbfounded by this I am so not like that I am a light and very good humored person...Even big and pregnant.

Anyway I get out of there and then walk out into the parking lot and it is flippin snowing! UGH. Some People here cannot drive in any inclement weather. Lovely just the drive home I wanted to take. Dh called as I was getting to my truck and told me he heard it was snowing... Yeah DUH! Tells me to be careful and asks why I am crying... Tell me... Why when someone asks you why you are crying you cry more???? I tell him I am tired and I just want to go home and that I will call him when I get home to let him know I got there... The drive home went smooth... Beside the one guy going 25 on the highway (2 lane)...But I get to the I-5 and smooth sailing the rest of the way home.
I get home call dh... Cry some more. UGH. Cannot explain why still. Hell I am crying AGAIN now!!!
I get a call from the rental management of this place. They JUST got my fix it letter for this place (I sent a month ago) and well they are coming today! @(#^&#$(^&#(^&#(^&@!)*@)#*%@!!!!!! I wanted to flippin SLEEP!!! So I hurriedly go to sweep up the floor and get it ready to mop (thanks boys and dogs!) clean the kitchen counter to get ready for these people to get here... I have not felt up to cleaning as good as I normally do...it hurts too much... Which at this point after trying to get SOME housework done I am in agony and I called the doctor and said I change my mind and I want the meds.!

Then the homeowner calls me... Eh we will be there Monday! UGH UGH But it is a relief.

OK So there is the end of it. Dh is on his way to my doctors office to get the script so he can get it filled. I can tell he wants to help me and make it all better but he is afraid to make me cry and well it is a vicious circle. He could say HI and I would cry at this point

Just for DH.....
This month, the 20th, he takes the exam for Chief (E7). This is just for him to make the board then it is a whole selection process from there. So we are crossing our fingers at this point for him to make the board. His rating is difficult to advance in and sometimes it takes many times going up to make it BUT I am hoping that he will make it this first time! Of course we won't know if he makes E7 until the summer... But we will know the board eligibility by Marchish.

So prayers, chants, crossed fingers or toes, sacrifices whatever I would appreciate it.

Well here it is the "oh poor me" post. I cannot remember doing one of these yet..... So I think I am LONG overdue! haha

OK Baby G seems to have dropped. The fact that now my breasts and belly are two different entities is a dead giveaway LOL
I am walking around here like a bow legged penguin! The pressue of him on my pelvis is killing me. The kicks in the ribs let me know he is no small boy any longer haha- if he ever WAS a small boy.
I have had some of the shaprest pains in my cervix. Stop me in my tracks kind of pain. Whether it is just baby pressure or my cervix changing I do not know. Two more days and I will be asking the doctor all of this of course.

I FEEL very pregnant. I get up in the morning get the boys ready for school. Get them out the door and then I go back to sleep!!! OMG! What in the heck?? I do not even wake up until after noon. And then back up and then asleep again after the kids go to bed! I am up less then I am asleep! I do not sleep solid though. Tossing and turning and bathroom trips... Perfect preparation for nighttime feedings!

I am so lucky dh and the boys understand. They say I am sleeping for two...which I think is cute :)

But I feel so blech. I have hit the point of... OK I am ready for this to be over!

I keep fearing that the next ultrasound right before induction I will be told that Baby G is not a boy but the other ultrasounds were wrong and it is a GIRL!

See that happened to me with DS#2. Every ultrasound until the one right before induction... Girl. The last one... Oh ..... "look Ma a penis!!"

Just cross your fingers for my sanity

Or rather Baby G went through one heck of a growth spurt! I also think he turned head down.

The fact the hiccups are VERY visble now, the kicks are high up ( I will not tell you what happened when I got kicked in the stomach after eating)...overall the location/increased strength of the movements and some of the aches..... I will have to see what the doc thinks on Thursday. I was only measuring 2 weeks ahead, after measuring 4 weeks ahead for the month prior. But that can vary from appointment to appointment.

I am thinking even without the weight gain pattern like with the boys, this little guy will be just as big.

I wish I could get out and do more BUT I am having trouble standing or walking for a long time. Dang back. But I am carrying almost ALL out front.... and there ya go, back pain. I am thinking I will have to cut back/out the volunteering real soon. As much as I would like to keep going. I am more tired and wearing out so quickly lately.

I have done some purging in the house... thank you Freecycle haha. More things out.

Tonight I moved our bed (no worries I didn't do any heavy lifting or anything the bed glides hehe). So now I can start getting that side of the room ready for the co-sleeper.

I got out all the baby blankets I kept. All were handmade....ones I can never get rid of. I told the boys the stories behind the blankets that were made for them, who made them any funny stories or whatever.
I have them all out and ready for the wash. I will clear a shelf in DS#2's closet that way they have a place to sit until the baby gets here.
Hmmm think maybe nesting is starting???

Today I have had numerous Braxton Hicks contractions. Enough that I definitely feel them OW!!!
Have had some sharp cervical pains too.
Just stuff that is saying that hey body get ready Labor will be here before you know it.
Enough stuff though that I will be bringing it up on Thrusday at the doctors...