Gina's Ramblings

I giggled at the fact this free range turkey is now a prisoner in my oven?? mwahahahahaha

Every year about this time I try to take the time to reflect on what I am thankful for in my life. Well this isn't the only time I look at what I am thankful for, but This time of the year really calls for it.

I am thankful for so much. We have our new addition to our family. Our son Grady. After trying for so many years and going through losses. We were blessed with our little firecracker! He is just such a joy. I have two older sons who are the best little gentlemen. They are so wonderful so loving, so smart. They are Such great young men and they have made a lot of changes this year.
I have a wonderful husband. He puts up with me in my hard to get along with moments (that is no easy task). He has a steady job that provides us with so much. He is a loving and caring man and a great father. We have a strong and happy marriage. It is great to hear your child say, "When I get married I want to be like you and Dad".

We also are celebrating our first holiday in OUR new home. We bought a house. I swear it is STILL just sinking in LOL. I love our home. I like the security of the whole thing :) I wonder at times though what took us so long LOL

I have two dogs who keep me laughing. As I say with kids and dogs, who needs to go out for entertainment?!?!

I am simply thankful for everything in our lives.

Took DS#3 in for his 9 month check up yesterday ... all was great. That is until I asked for a refill on my prenatal vitamins since I am still breastfeeding. The nurse does some typing and says "hmm" Never a good thing to hear I tell ya LOL
Turns out I have a new doctor. A doctor I have never heard of. A civillian doctor at some other practice.

Go to figure it out. Go and talk to the oh so helpful people at the service center. We have been changed ALL of us. Without my ever knowing. Our doctor went to Iraq for 6 months. And instead of reassigning us to another doctor in clinic they decided we lived SO FAR from base that we could no loger be seen at the clinic. We moved to a town 4 miles from where we lived! So after a little back and forth with these folks I give up.

OK no biggie but my oldest has a handul of health problems I get VERY TIRED of having to go over with every new doctor. Now I have to start over WITHOUT his records on site

AND to add the cherry to the top of my day. The referral that was just entered that day to test DS#3's hearing (as a precautionary because of DS#1) is not valid beacuse the clinic is not our primary care doctors. AAAAAANNNNDDD the referral I have been expecting, and have not got, in the mail for DS#1 to see a pediatric neurologist is ALSO invalid. I will never get it because the referral can not be entered by a doctor NOT our primary care practice. Do I get notice they rejected the referral?

So here we are having to start over AGAIN with a new doctor, new practice and get new referrals etc. So they,(our insurance) are costing themselves a nice bit of money as we ALL go in next week to be seen by the new doctor. I have to make an appointment JUST to get prenatal vitamins! lol

to top it all off We could have stayed with the clinic... after dh's call to our insurance. We have to sign a statement that we are willing to make the drive. The helpful service folks didn't seem to know that...hmmmm

Good news, this doctor is just off the Island so really close. But lets see if she will impress me at all. If she is not someone I trust... we are in the market for a doctor AGAIN

I miss my dr. Dangit!

Let me add... I was told I will get notice of the change in 4-6 WEEKS! LOL that makes a ton of sense why not notify prior to the change?

Dh should b getting a decent travel claim back. So he wants to use it to buy ME something for Christmas... so much for not exchanging gifts LOL

Anyway he puts it in front of me like so.... My choice. Do I want a new Dyson Vacuum? Or do I want my computer upgraded? How will I choose?

I can always put the vacuum on layaway....not the computer parts. Hmmmm

Dh and I did some major pinching and we bought the boys Nintendo DS's for Christmas. Might I say I was very happy.
Well we ask DS#1 today where his current Gameboy is. Yeah well after pretending to look for it he says he has to tell us the truth. He "lent" it to a friend who gave it to someone else and it is lost now. OMG!!!!!!!!!!!! This is not the first time this child has done this either which makes me want to blow my top. Same thing happened before EXACT same thing. So we told him he needs to attempt to get it back. And then we told him we had bought him a DS for Christmas however we are taking it back now (which we will). That he has not shown the responsibility enough because he has messed up again. We will not buy a replacement this time not for a long while if ever. Last time I waited a year, this time well 15 years old sounds good right?
I am so angry and yes hurt mainly because I am so disappointed in him. He knows better. Why does he keep trying to buy other peoples friendship?

I am a Gary Allan fan and no not just because he is a nice piece of eye candy.
I love hismusic and have since the first time I heard it.
On his new album is this song which I adore

Life ain't always beautiful
Sometimes it's just plain hard
Life can knock you down, it can break your heart

Life ain't always beautiful
You think you're on your way
And it's just a dead end road at the end of the day

But the struggle makes you stronger
And the changes make you wise
And happiness has it's own way of takin' it sweet time

[chorus]
No,life aint always beautiful
Tears will fall sometimes
Life aint always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride

Life aint always beautiful
Some days I miss your smile
I get tired of walkin' all these lonely miles

And I wish for just one minute
I could see your pretty face
Guess I can dream, but life dont work that way


But the struggles makes me stronger
And the changes make me wise
And happiness has it's own way of takin' its sweet time

No, life aint always beautiful
But I know I'll be fine
Hey, life aint always beautiful
But its a beautiful ride
What a beautiful ride

My oldest son has had SO many problems through the years.

But I mean this kids seems to be the "if it can happen it happens to him" type.

Anyway we are dealing with a ruptured ear drum, a future exploratory surgery on his middle ear, an adjustment in his medications as well as trying to pin down what is wrong with him (is it Bi polar is it something else?Is it the MEDICINES?) ugh

Now the kid has to go to a pediatric neurologist. They want him to go through a complete work-up as well as a MRI.

Is it wrong to want stuff to go well with him? I just hope that he is just getting everything out of the way and his adult life is problem free

This sucker has enough room to write dr appts and events and all that. I will have to get our new one next month (darn finances)


More Time Moms

LOL my oldest called from school today. First words out of his mouth?? "Mom do not worry I am not in trouble! I just have a question" LOL
GOT to love that boy :)

If we were to get pregnant NO it would not stop us from persuing the foster to adopt route as well. It would change the age a little. A child above the age of 2. But that is all

Yup His official nickname today :)
Grady can climb the stairs with relative ease. He got up three stairs while I was there watching. That in itself amazed me. I wasdoing dishes and heard a giggle. You know that giggle that means no good will come of this?? lol
Well I walk out in the front room and there he is on the fifth step holding on to the spindles of the hand rail laughing. He was SOO proud of himself. I stood right there behind him and the boy can climb the stairs pretty dang quick! So it is time to buy that BIG gate that can go accross the dining room and front room.

I love that boy but I think I have another daredevil on my hands lol

How do you like them apples?? I got my response back already! The dogs will be OK!!!! As long as they are not aggressive :) I will have to sign a special safety plan though stating I will not leave the animal alone with the child. I do not do that now so it is no change :)

Well I completed my orientation. Dh will go through it when he gets home as well. We have a lot of what was talked about within the home inspection and we were already planning on ladders for the back two upstairs rooms.We have planned on locking file cabinets for medicines too.
BUT one thing may put a stop to all of this. Our dogs. If they disqualify us then that is that and we will not persue this any further. I really hope that it will be OK.
We will be allowed two children under the age of two so Grady and the foster child
We also have to decide are we going to JUST take children who are available for adoption? Would we be open to just fostering? hmmm

I finally got my contact back!! It only took how many months? hahaha

Classes start (closest to us) in March. One or both of the parents have to attened all of the classes. This will also give us time to get some other needed things done. Including putting up a fence, to finish childproofing to county standards and getting some other things we need. I think if we had the home inspection right this instant we would get hit on a few things, no stair gate, medications not secured and the room not completely together (no bedding on the beds yet).

Dh and I are still discussing what route we are going and we have to get into ages as well. I think we decided 3 and under however. Boy or girl? we do not know.

I talked to the boys about it they are fine with it. Alex thought we were offering HIM up for adoption. Silly kid!! But they are excited at the prospect of another sibling and Gary of course wanted to know if the child could play video games LOL

So that is that for now

What woman would not love this?? He does dishes too!!!




And finally ... All he wants for Christmas is his ONE front tooth hehehe

There comes a time in every young childs life when they get to eat pasta for the first time. In our house it means a tray of pasta and letting the baby go for it. Tonight, it was Grady's turn!!

And it begins



Hmmm well This stuff is pretty good



KISS me baby!



Ummmm what do you mean I am all messy????



And finally his older brother eating pasta for the first time as a baby

That there is no need for medication for mental illnesses. An ass kicking will cure it.
Yep my ex has said our oldest should live with him for a year because he is tired of him being on medications. And simply kicking his butt will cure him. I am sure my sons doctor will LOVE that one.

Today my middle son has to go to the dr. A few months ago he was seen for an issue he had. After an amazing xray... it was determined he had an impacted bowel. After an aggressive home regimen (poor kid went through hell). He seemed to be better. Now in the last couple of weeks... it has started to happen again (the issues that brought this problem to light before). So my poor baby has to go back to the dr again today. I am worried. Not that I will let him know. I am almost certain that he will have to go to a specialist. I just want to know what in the world is wrong with him.

OK on to my next thing. My oldests doctor has moved. Moved where you ask. New Zealand. Not that it is relevant but holy heck talk about moving out of town lol. So he has to see a new doctor for his medication management. We need to do something with his medication. He has, even on the meds for Bipolar... had VERY extreme highs and lows last month ALL month.
I can hope we find just one med that will work for him. I hate changing his meds adding new ones etc. That poor kid has been through so much.

Dh is leaving soonish for a while. No biggie - that sounds bad doesn't it?? But all part of his job

The oldest has another appointment next week with Children's hospital. He has had some extreme issues with his ears again (sigh). So we are possibly looking at another surgery...another UGH. I would tell his sperm donor. But he doesn't seem to give a rats behind lately unless it directly involves HIM and only him (glad to see he hasn't changed) No responses to the pictures I have been sending, the school reports...nada. Heck cannot even remember the last time he called his son. I despise the fact that he likes to play the cool Dad and buy him stuff and NOT deal with anything else or help pay for the extras (haha extras he doesn't even pay for medical or dental LOL) At least he still wants to SEE him and is happy about that. For that I am thankful.

Anyway add on an eye appt for my middle son as well and we will have everything rounded out LOL


Honestly though this is all for stressors. Everything else is dandy
No to get myself a job from home that pays adequate heck a few extra hundred a month would be perfect!
OK that is about it.
Miniman is sleeping so if I am going to mop without help I better start