Monday, February 06, 2006
Dang dreams
They are killing me. Go figure now that I am sleeping again (somewhat) HA. I really dislike having dreams where I wake up and I FEEL the hurt and loss from the dream. It felt so real I have had to take the time to wake up and make sure it was ONLY a dream.
Dh keeps wanting a divorce in each and every dream I have had lately. He tells me one of a few things; there is someone new, he NEVER really loved me, He is bored, or is gay What the heck?!?!?!?!
Last night he told me he was done being married and wanted to go have fun now. I remember in the dream searching for someone new. And I THAT dependant now on a man in my life that even my dream self cannot just BE a single mom?
The feeling though after a dream like last night. It is a feeling of loss. I FEEL like he DID leave me. I have waken up crying before. UGH
It makes me wonder though IS he happy? Are these dreams a vision of things to come?
Or am I just a victim of my overactive imagination in my dreams
Dh keeps wanting a divorce in each and every dream I have had lately. He tells me one of a few things; there is someone new, he NEVER really loved me, He is bored, or is gay What the heck?!?!?!?!
Last night he told me he was done being married and wanted to go have fun now. I remember in the dream searching for someone new. And I THAT dependant now on a man in my life that even my dream self cannot just BE a single mom?
The feeling though after a dream like last night. It is a feeling of loss. I FEEL like he DID leave me. I have waken up crying before. UGH
It makes me wonder though IS he happy? Are these dreams a vision of things to come?
Or am I just a victim of my overactive imagination in my dreams
