Tuesday, May 09, 2006
I do not look forward to
Mother's Day.
I know as a Mom I should be giddy THINKING about the upcoming ME day. But the time surrounding Mother's Day is so full of loss for me. in May 1998 We lost the man who married us, May 9 2000 My dad died, May 10 2001 I had a miscarriage at 13 weeks, May 2002 My great uncle died, May 2003 My grandmother Died. Those are the BIG deaths. Every year from 1998 to 2003 someone died in May!
I started to dread the whole month and all I wanted to do was crawl in a hole until the month was over.
But I do not like Mothers Day. It just makes me think about LOSS. I SHOULD be celebrating the lives I have created and nurtured but instead I get sad and grieve.
I know as a Mom I should be giddy THINKING about the upcoming ME day. But the time surrounding Mother's Day is so full of loss for me. in May 1998 We lost the man who married us, May 9 2000 My dad died, May 10 2001 I had a miscarriage at 13 weeks, May 2002 My great uncle died, May 2003 My grandmother Died. Those are the BIG deaths. Every year from 1998 to 2003 someone died in May!
I started to dread the whole month and all I wanted to do was crawl in a hole until the month was over.
But I do not like Mothers Day. It just makes me think about LOSS. I SHOULD be celebrating the lives I have created and nurtured but instead I get sad and grieve.
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FWIF--I'm struggling with it this year myself. :( But I do wish you the happiest Mother's Day that you CAN have... and peace in the memories of those you have lost.
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