Gina's Ramblings

My 9 y/o is such a sweet amazing little boy. they have this thing in class where they "recycle" old toys and stuff they don't want and they auction them off. Children use their class dollars they earn to buy items from other students. My son brought home a bunch of toys today ONE for him the others? They were for his younger brothers. He is always that way. so much of a giver you have to remind him to do for himself too. I think it was incredibly sweet.
Oh the items my son auctioned off today? Books he has outgrown LOL

The house is smelling so yummy
I have made the cheesecake
I have beans on for tomorrows bean dip
pasta sauce for dinner tonight and manicotti tomorrow
Pumpkin pies baking
I have the peanut butter cookie dough ready to go in after the pies
and I just chopped up onions I need for tomorrow Sweet Maui onions OMG SOOOO good

or could possibly be, maybe or possibly...a GIRL!!!! The odds are riding at 60% right now. I am going to try to get the $ together and get one of those 4D ultrasound things. And maybe have some ultrasound picture that is WORTH sharing... if you all thought the last one was bad the new one sucks harder lol

I just told DH I want that for Christmas I want the ultrasound. He said OK. I get my ultrasound I get my ultrasound. OK I think that is enough giddy girl celebration.

hubby emailed me to say he got a NAM (Navy & Marine Corps achievement medal). Normally these are given out at the end of a tour at whatever command. He has been at this command for 7 months. So he really did well to get this now. Very proud of the man ;)

OK So I have been pretty lax in updating with this pregnancy. Here is a picture of the belly @ 22 weeks

According to my email I won the UK lottery! I can hire live in help LMAO
Who sees it as logical you win a lottery via email you never entered.

I am a touch off of my rocker. heck with six boys and a baby on the way...who blames them?? haha
Seriously though I have a bit of an issue with anxiety. I was on medication there for a bit and while it didn't totally take it away but it took the edge off. About two weeks befor I found out I was pregnant I became very sporadic about taking my medication. Then when I found out we were expecting I stopped completely. Not that the medication is harmful in pregnancy but it is a medication I can do ok off of so why take it you know??
BUT I have been tired or sick...morning sickness lasted until a couple of weeks ago. Well my house has fallen WAY behind. The clutter that has built up is causing me to feel trapped, causing anxiety, making me feel further behind and overwhelmed and I feel like anything I try won't help, so I don't do anything, causes more of a mess and the cycle continues.
My oldest wants to have a friend over...which I am honestly ok with but the condition of my house, embarassing! So he has been working on the downstairs (on his own) so I started on the upstairs. I get tired easily and have to take a lot of breaks BUT it is getting better.
wish me luck. My room needs to be my relaxing sanctuary again!

I am watching this episode. It is about this guy who is a rageaholic. I am looking at this guy thinking that "OMG that could be (could have been) my son in another 5-10 years" The rages and things this guy does, I have either experienced it or can see it in the future. This guy on the show is on meth and crack... I can totally understand folks with these issues self medicating. wow

-Friends who are friends when they are single but as soon as anyone (read love interest) comes into their lives they forget you exsist! Serious I am married with what 14 kids?? I can still take 5 minutes to answer an email though it may take a week or so lol

-My neighbor who runs his car in his yard for hours at a time. He isn't fixing it....it just runs. It is loud. It is obnoxious. And If I could I would chose to shove his car where te sun doesn't shine. When the power goes out he turns it on to POWER HIS HOUSE. Last year when the power was out for days I had more than my fill of that loud stupid car!


-People at Wal-Mart. No really 90% of them are rude and mean and just downright in a foul mood. But it is one particular Wal-Mart near where we are. I have panic attacks everytime I go in there. Yet I continue to go every few months. Maybe I should be mad at myself??

On medication... full day. DS#1 is amazingly easy to be around. Last night I did not have to tear the two boys apart (no verbal no posturing physically). Instead I had to go tell them to quit laughing and talking and go to bed! OMG!! I will take that ANY day of the week!!
There were a couple of things that normally set DS#1 off. Bill wanted the window open DS#1 didn't... It wasn't WWIII is was a compromise and he was happy with it. Bill kept talking no meltdown for DS#1.
This morning he was happy. HAPPY! He didn't tease his two year old brother until he cried he was caring and loving.
I hope this continues. I can live like this and my blood pressure will benefit.

marks year 18 in my husbands military career. 18 years!!!! I am proud of that man honestly.