Thursday, January 17, 2008
Broke my heart
The other day DH was getting ready to leave. They haven't left on deployment YET this is only a few weeks. The 2 y/o, well he is such a daddy's boy. I mean he seriously jumps up and down and squeals with delight screaming "Daddy home!!!!!! daddy home!!!!!!!" whenever DH comes home.
DH tried this time to let him know that daddy would be gone for a little bit. That is when the little man started tugging at the heartstrings. Crying saying "no daddy stay" and "I go too Daddy. I be good I stay in car OK?" It was too cute and heartbreaking at the same time. None of the other kids were this bad. Poor litle guy was crying and crying and wanted to be held. UGH
DH says at that point that "This is why I cannot do this anymore" Talking of course about the sea duty and leaving the family behind etc. It has become harder on him every year to keep it up. If he gets advanced he willl be staying in I think 23 years so a few more years. The good news though, that would mostly be shore duty. I know dh is upset as much as I am about missing the babys birth (possibly) and missing more than half of her first year.
It is tearing him p to be honest. I mean he has not missed any of that with the others two we had he was on shore duty and was able to be there for all of that begining year/year and a half or more.
It just bites overall. I am highly emotional at the moment and thinking about it isn't helping so writing it out helps. If you made it through it congrats to you! haha
DH tried this time to let him know that daddy would be gone for a little bit. That is when the little man started tugging at the heartstrings. Crying saying "no daddy stay" and "I go too Daddy. I be good I stay in car OK?" It was too cute and heartbreaking at the same time. None of the other kids were this bad. Poor litle guy was crying and crying and wanted to be held. UGH
DH says at that point that "This is why I cannot do this anymore" Talking of course about the sea duty and leaving the family behind etc. It has become harder on him every year to keep it up. If he gets advanced he willl be staying in I think 23 years so a few more years. The good news though, that would mostly be shore duty. I know dh is upset as much as I am about missing the babys birth (possibly) and missing more than half of her first year.
It is tearing him p to be honest. I mean he has not missed any of that with the others two we had he was on shore duty and was able to be there for all of that begining year/year and a half or more.
It just bites overall. I am highly emotional at the moment and thinking about it isn't helping so writing it out helps. If you made it through it congrats to you! haha
# posted by Gina @ 10:38 AM 
