Monday, June 30, 2008
What can I say? (huge unload of thoughts and emotions)
Something nice would be a flippin' plus. DS had another break. He pulled a knife on me. Yeah folks you read that right. I was ready to put the training in disarming to good use. UGH Nothing came of it and he took off ot the door again. His friends brought him back home this time. He is in MAJOR violation of his release orders. I could (and may) have him readmitted. He has another appointment tomorrow and I will go on the doctors recomendation.
I am at the point that I am ready for him not to live here anymore. God what type of mother says that?? It tears me up to even think it. His biological father, I suppose a good enough person (I wouldn't know who he personality and responsiblty wise now). BUT he insists there is nothing really wrong with "his son". It is apparently the lack of parental ability on my part. Oh and of course the "lifestyle we lead" (read into that my husband is in the service). I fear my son will not get adequate care for his needs there. I also fear for my ex's children. I know DS can be violent. And the fact that I would essentially giving up on my child.... it is enough to drive someone crazy (or crazier). So yeah it is torment. There appears to be no good answer. So either I ask for him to be readmitted, ship him off to his father's, or tough it out as usual.
What will I do? I do not know.
The cherry on the crap sundae that is my life lately, my water heater has quit working. Not sure what is going on with it at all, well besides the fact that NOTHING is going on LOL. Of course there was a 3 year warranty on it.... anyone want to guess when that time was up? You get a cookie if you guessed March this year. It of course hapens AFTER regular business hours and of course when I have dishes to do and I smell like I have been rolling in a barn stall (OK not really but you needed a pleasant picture there ). I am going to see if a local military assistance organization has plumbers who will work at a discount or something. Until then? Cold showers and boiled water for dishes yippie. I am all for a simpler life but hot water? Not something I want to give up.
I am at the point that I am ready for him not to live here anymore. God what type of mother says that?? It tears me up to even think it. His biological father, I suppose a good enough person (I wouldn't know who he personality and responsiblty wise now). BUT he insists there is nothing really wrong with "his son". It is apparently the lack of parental ability on my part. Oh and of course the "lifestyle we lead" (read into that my husband is in the service). I fear my son will not get adequate care for his needs there. I also fear for my ex's children. I know DS can be violent. And the fact that I would essentially giving up on my child.... it is enough to drive someone crazy (or crazier). So yeah it is torment. There appears to be no good answer. So either I ask for him to be readmitted, ship him off to his father's, or tough it out as usual.
What will I do? I do not know.
The cherry on the crap sundae that is my life lately, my water heater has quit working. Not sure what is going on with it at all, well besides the fact that NOTHING is going on LOL. Of course there was a 3 year warranty on it.... anyone want to guess when that time was up? You get a cookie if you guessed March this year. It of course hapens AFTER regular business hours and of course when I have dishes to do and I smell like I have been rolling in a barn stall (OK not really but you needed a pleasant picture there ). I am going to see if a local military assistance organization has plumbers who will work at a discount or something. Until then? Cold showers and boiled water for dishes yippie. I am all for a simpler life but hot water? Not something I want to give up.
# posted by Gina @ 9:26 PM 
