Gina's Ramblings

DS has one last shot here at home. He knows that I am serious. I think for the first time he realizes that. I got face to face with him and let him know, I will love him forever, but I have to protect him and protect myself and the other kids. I will do whatever it takes to do that. Even if that meant him no longer living here. I would not hesitate to do it. I let him know that I cannot help him if he will not help himself and won't pull his weight. I do not have it in me to go for many more years fighting with him to get help he won't take (that make sense?)
The doctor agreed with me and agreed he might do better out of the hospital for the time being and added another medication to the line-up. Man I cringe saying that. I am not out to medicate the hell of my child. He needs to take medication to find enough balance to make him able to use the tools we are trying to teach him so he can cope on his own.
So that is where we are. If he violates again, I will have him back in the hospital possibly until the order expires this fall. as soon as he is released he would be on a plane to his dads.