Gina's Ramblings

It has been a fairly subdued day today actually. I could complain about the fireworks that the neighbors have been setting off for 3 days staight.... day and night. But I just wish I had all of the money they wasted on them. With the overcast day we are having our view tonight will not be that great honestly. But I will do my best. I am making a non traditional chili and cornbread for dinner :)


Our new foster son is a cute kid. I am awaiting Monday to hear when he will go back to his parents.

We are at 53% done with this deployment!!! 53%!!!!!! That is over the hump and I am bound and determined to have the downhill section go smoother.

DS has one last shot here at home. He knows that I am serious. I think for the first time he realizes that. I got face to face with him and let him know, I will love him forever, but I have to protect him and protect myself and the other kids. I will do whatever it takes to do that. Even if that meant him no longer living here. I would not hesitate to do it. I let him know that I cannot help him if he will not help himself and won't pull his weight. I do not have it in me to go for many more years fighting with him to get help he won't take (that make sense?)
The doctor agreed with me and agreed he might do better out of the hospital for the time being and added another medication to the line-up. Man I cringe saying that. I am not out to medicate the hell of my child. He needs to take medication to find enough balance to make him able to use the tools we are trying to teach him so he can cope on his own.
So that is where we are. If he violates again, I will have him back in the hospital possibly until the order expires this fall. as soon as he is released he would be on a plane to his dads.